Never Grow Up!

So I guess it's a music themed week!

I bought the new Taylor Swift CD on itunes and the whole CD is fabulous!

This song makes me think of my babies (that is- the children that I am so blessed to have in my life- my nieces and nephews) They fill my heart with so much happiness and more than once I have told each one of them that I didn't want them to grow up, I wanted them to stay the same age forever and to love me as much as they do right now! My little T-bugs reassured me once that he'll always love me and when he gets older he will bring his wife and 6 kids to my house all the time. (I am going to remind him of this one day!) There is NOTHING like having them come into my house and run to me with their arms wide open to give me loves. I would do ANYTHING for them. They hold my heart in their hands and they don't even know it.

Your little hands wrapped around my finger...

I'd give anything if you could stay like that...


Don't ever grow up... Just stay this little...

I won't let no body hurt you...

Won't let no one break your heart...

No one will ever desert you...

Oh darling

Don't you ever grow up...

Don't you ever grow up...

It could stay this simple...

Just don't ever grow up...


I love my babies!

A Reminder that I hope I NEVER forget....

I heard this song for the first time this evening and it completely touched my heart.

We are all human, we all make mistakes, some small and some very big.

But NO ONE but God knows our hearts and knows our pain and our past as well as our future.

It is NOT our place to judge others.

It is NOT our place to place blame.

It is NOT our place to talk bad about people.

It IS our place to LOVE like JESUS LOVES!

It IS our place to FORGIVE like JESUS FORGIVES!

I hope you enjoy this song as much as I did and I hope if you have feelings of guilt, or shame, or hatred or judging, or any other list of things, that you will know that Jesus loves, and Jesus Forgives. More than anything I want to follow His example and do the same, I hope you do too!

A few things I know

Way back in March..... I did a post called A Few Things I know

I had meant to continue this post as a weekly post, however I went on an unexpected 4 month hiatus....

But now I am continuing on...

A Few Things I Know (this week)....

I know that I need sleep to function!

I know that I love my husband more and more and as tough as marriage can sometimes be, it really does get easier, and it is SO worth it!

I know that if I am not blessed with a baby of my own, I have 6 babies that I get to share and love like they are my own, and I am so thankful for Sisters and Brothers that let me have them whenever I want and let me love them like a parent.

I know that someday those 6 babies won't be babies anymore, but I will still call them my babies.

I know that I am blessed with the most amazing friends. I said this before, but it is so true and I had to say it again.

I know that I would rather be to cold than to hot, because it is easier to get warmer when you are cold then to get cooler if you are too hot.

I know that people think I am crazy for decorating for Christmas so early, but I am so excited to decorate and put out my trees on November 1st! :)

I know that it never fails.... every time I buy something online, two days later I get an email about a sale on the same item or a gift with purchase and because I bought my item two days earlier, I am not eligible for the discount or gift. Arrggggg!

I know that getting back into a workout routine is HARD WORK, why did I ever stop working out in the first place?!


What are a few things that you know?

Reality Show Tid Bits

Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a HUGE reality show fan. DVR is my best friend and since I have insomnia most nights, I watch them in bed till the wee hours of the early morning. (that and my husband HATES them so I wait until he falls asleep!)

Instead of writing an entire blog on each reality show, (umm that would take up my entire life if I did that) I thought it would be fun to share a few of my thoughts during the week on my favorite shows.

First I will tell you some that I do NOT watch, not to say that I wouldn't, I just haven't gotten into them. Jersey Shore- just not that interested. Dancing with the Stars- I think SYTYCD is so much better that I can't even bring myself to watch a dancing show with only ballroom dancing. Any of the Housewives shows- the ONLY reason I do not watch these is because I do NOT get Bravo- if I had Bravo I am sure these would be on my list. American Idol- I know, call me crazy, but I just have never gotten into it.

Now on to some of my favorites that are on right now:

Teen Mom- just ended, but oh how I love this show. My Mom was a teen Mom so I feel like I can relate to them through her experience. And if you are one of my FB friends you know that I cry during every.single.episode. Maci is my favorite Mom, but I so love Catelyn and Ty and Farrah has really grown on me this past season. Amber, not so much, I truly think the girl crazy.

Biggest Fatty- I mean Biggest Loser- last season I got my husband to start watching it with me. Actually he only started watching it because his BFF also watches it with his fiance so because his BFF watches it then somehow that makes it okay for him to watch it. :) So Tuesday nights is date night with my husband, we go to bowling league and come home to watch Biggest Fatty (The name my husband calls it, and it sticks) while we sit on the couch and eat ice-cream- LOL.

Project Runway- can I just say that Gretchen should have gone home this past week! I think Michael C. had the best collection out of all of them and I looked at all 10 of the final fours collection and the only one who had a decent collection in my opinion was Michael C. Yes, he cried like a baby during his elimination and it was quite embarrassing for him, but really he should have been picked to move onto the finale.

The Next Iron Chef- Hubby watches this one with me too, and we lay in bed at 11 o'clock at night and get hungry! not good! I am so ready for the girl in pig tails, Chef Estes to go home.

Update! just watched my DVR'd episode and Chef Estes was sent packing- woohoo!

The Amazing Race- LOVE this show. Someday, I will be on it! I am ready for the QVC girls to be sent packing, the blonde is really annoying, and loud. ;)

Hells Kitchen- I don't really like this show, but my husband likes it so I watch it with him. What irritates me is these people are not even chefs, in my opinion, they are just potty mouthed wannabe chefs. Not a fan!

Survivor- I am always a fan of the underdog (and Boston Rob!) :) I know exactly who I want to be booted from this season, but can't remember any of their names, just their personality's and appearances, but I will remember them after this week and put them down. Way too many of the wrong people have been sent home to early this season, in my opinion.

Real World/Road Rules Challenges - Seriously Johnny needs to not be allowed to come back on another challenge. And Paula drives me batty, as well as Jen, Katie, Melinda, Sarah, Laurel, well pretty much everyone. But the train wreck is so much fun to watch. So excited for CT to come back this season.

Keeping up with the Kardashians- LOVE this show and all the family drama!

And some others that I LOVE but are not yet on: SYTYCD, The Bachelor, Design Star (although I hated last season!) Big Brother, The City, The Hills (which is no longer... but such my guilty pleasure)

And did I forget to mention that I love googling and finding out spoilers?! because I do! I hate not knowing who is going to be picked or get the boot. The only ones I really read up on spoilers on is The Bachelor from my friend Reality Steve, and Survivor.

Anyone else out there a reality show fan?

4 month hiatus

Wow, I did NOT expect to be gone that long. But time really does fly and I am not even going to begin to talk about how I can't believe we are almost into November.

I always have good intentions on how I am going to blog about this or that, and I have thought about different posts that I was going to write but didn't get around to it. And then before I knew it one week had gone by, then one month, then two, and you get the picture.

And soon, it will be my entire life that has gone by... I remember when I was a child and the weeks would seem like months and the months seem like years. A summer would be an eternity, and I would have count downs for what I thought were huge milestones. Junior high... High School... turning Sixteen...

I still have countdowns, it just seems as if it goes a lot faster to get from point A to point B.

When you were a teenager did you ever look at the people you knew and think, "Wow when I am their age, I will be old!" I used to think that... And guess what, those people I would think that about were like 26 when I was 15. And guess what? I am now 32...... So what does that mean?

I sure don't feel old. But do 15 year olds perceive me as ancient? It is funny to think about.

Truly I do not mind getting older. Yes, some things are difficult as you get older, but a lot of things are much easier.

Not really sure how I got on this topic, but it's food for thought. And it sure feels good to write another blog post! I've missed blogging and my blogging friends!

XOXO

I Heart Garage Saleing

Memorial day weekend I went garage saleing with my Grandma and I found so many fabulous finds. If I would have had a truck I would have bought SO.MUCH.MORE. (my husband is glad I didn't have a truck!)

Here is a little chair that came with an old school desk I bought. I repainted it red with a can of spray paint. (spray paint has become my new best friend, I had never used it before and it is SO.MUCH.EASIER! ♥ it!)

Some old frames that I bought to get my craft on. I have so many ideas, I know for sure that I will be painting them, and I have thought about putting chicken wire behind some, maybe cork behind one, and maybe fabric behind some for a picture collage. I would LOVE more ideas, please comment with ideas you may have, and maybe if I use your idea you might just get a little surprise! :)

Here is the old school desk I bought, I repainted it red and used chalkboard spray paint for the top. Can I just say that I LOVE the chalkboard paint! (and so do my nieces and nephews!) :)


My favorite find? This old wooden high chair.... I have been wanting one like this for a very long time and I thought to myself, I need to watch for one at garage sales, and then I found it! It took a lot of work fitting it in my little car with the desk and frames and my poor Grandma ended up sitting in the back seat in a VERY small spot, but she volunteered :) and it all worked out, and I am so happy about it. As you know, I don't have any kids y.e.t. BUT, I will eventually, and in the meantime I have lots of nieces that will use it and friends babies. :)

It was in pretty good condition when I bought it, but I did sand down a few spots and repaint it with black spraypaint! ♥♥♥

Have a fabulous Thursday!!!

31, 14, 15, 32, 16.....0

Numbers. Simple meaningless numbers, unless you are me.

A little deep and a little personal, but I am throwing it all out there. Somehow, talking about it makes me feel a little bit better, and although I have very dear friends who know my struggles, only those that have been in my situation can really know how I feel. But I'm hoping with what I write, and something I want to share with you written by a friend of mine, will give you a glimpse of what I have come to realize, sadly, a lot of us go through.

31- days in my cycle
14- the day I start testing
15- the day I ovulate
32- the number of months I have been trying to conceive & the number of months I have been disappointed.
16- the number of years I have known that I was going to have fertiliy problems
(is it weird that I have felt this from a young age, that I somehow knew that I would have fertility issues?)
0- the number of times I have had a positive pregnancy test.

A friend of mine, that has dealt with some of my same issues, wrote the most amazing blog post about what woman in our situation go through every month. I asked her permission if I could share it on my blog and she said that I could. I am not going to link up to her blog because it is private and shared with friends and family, but I wanted to share with you part of what she wrote, because it is EXACTLY.what.I.feel.every.single.month! And I just couldn't have said it any better had I wrote it myself.

In my dear friend Erika's words:
NO MEDALS

"anyone who has struggled with pregnancy issues -- infertility, miscarriage, etc. -- will tell you that every month or so it's the Opening Ceremonies of the Olympics of Mental Gymnastics. there are several events:

maybe you're a ribbon twirler who wants to stay positive, and you let yourself hope that This Time is going to be it...and then your cycle starts, right on time.

or maybe you're the more stoic balance beam walker who just gets up there and puts the tampons in your purse around day 27 and expects another round of disappointment because that way you can concentrate on Just Not Falling.

or maybe the whole thing has worn you down so much that you just wish desperately you could just dismount and forget it and stop counting days...but you just can't, compulsively spinning around and around the very uneven bars of your sanity.

there are no medals awarded in these events. there's no real audience because generally all this sweat and blood and tears takes place in the very private confines of a woman's heart, mind, and body. sometimes partners or friends are clued into what's going on, but generally the monthly heartbreak is downplayed, hidden, and pushed aside for the demands of everyday life. even Olympians have to pay bills, especially when Wheaties is most certainly not endorsing you."


So to anyone else that is feeling this pain and month after month struggle, I understand, and I am so very sorry, because truly I would not wish this on anyone... And Erika, thank you for all of the amazing things you write and for sharing your heart, I know that God brought you into my life so many years ago for a reason, I am blessed to have known you and spent a few weeks in person with you, and although we never see eachother and only talk through the internet, I consider you a dear friend. I love you....